一周前的某一个暖暖的早上，Adora心血来潮，早上六点半一个咕噜爬起来，和老爸去城南公园早锻炼。老爸打太极，我做瑜伽。40分钟后开始放松。当睁开眼睛看见那一大片纯净蓝色的时候，心中满溢着幸福感。

乐极生悲。果然是这个理。当天晚上腰部感到不适。第二天即进入半瘫状态。

我开始了为期一周的病中生活。

我开始乖乖地躺在床上。平躺不是不痛，侧躺最舒服。话说生病的时候真的挺无聊，又没有人打电话给我讲笑话逗我开心，我于是在病床边用一个下午的时间干掉了一本《盗墓笔记》。当天晚上半夜醒来，竟久久不敢入睡…… 话说我胆也太小了点吧！这书想象不可谓不丰富瑰丽，但漏洞也与之形成鲜明正比，看到最后好奇心与雾水同飞。问LG后来几本有否解开谜团，据说是情节越来越离谱谜团却越来越浓。好吧好吧~正好不看，省得我半夜醒来睡不着。《浮生六记》也有翻，林语堂的翻译真的挺无华，跟原文平实的语言与小家碧玉的感情很相符。我想夫妻做到六记里那样，真是此生无憾啊！又读了一些宋词，从一开始读破句到后来能顺利背下来，看来短期内进步迅速。一直觉得读诗读词特别需要丰富的想象力与敏锐的感知力，这样才能与作者那些幽微深美的抒怀同步。喜欢那些真性情的慨叹，“归云一去无踪迹，何处是前期？狎兴生疏，酒徒萧索，不似少年时。”也欣赏“直须看尽洛城花，始共春风容易别”的豪兴。以前一直以为那些词人是伤春悲秋无病呻吟的主儿，但看到那句“人生自是有情痴，此恨不关风与月”后，豁然开朗！还来得及将这一重大发现塞进论文，收获不小！

电影也不少。The Reader的确不错！里面的情欲场面虽然也很大尺度，但看完整部影片后留在脑海里的，却不是那几块肉。（对比《色戒》，看完后脑子里除了交缠的肉体外好像没啥特别的印象了）一个因为不识字对政治高度绝缘的女人，一个在非常社会里的正常人，人的渺小，不能表现得更为传神了。看Changeling的时候，脑海中挥之不去AJ的烈焰红唇，不过还是被紧凑但流畅的故情节奏打动。影片最后打出Direct and Produced by Clint Eastwood，直呼“果然如此！”在老男人的感召下看了部老片Million Dollar Baby，又被感动了记……当老男人最后俯身在她death bed前跟她说：Mo Cuishle means my darling, my blood时，我哭得那个叫老泪纵横啊！她最后带着泪光的那一笑，应该是她这一世完美的封印了吧，我想。那个女的出来五分钟我就觉得她应该得最佳女主角——自身的颜色退得太干净了！在我看来她就是一个来自穷苦家庭但生性力观意志坚韧的女人。越看到后来越坚定这个想法。后来搜了下，果然如此！同时也让我想到了为什么AJ虽然在《换子疑云》里表现不俗但还是拿不到小金人的一个原因——当她拉起BT人的领子把他推到窗边咬牙切齿质问他Did you kill my son? Did you kill my son的时候，我总觉得她会像劳拉一样拿出把枪里威胁他。（小汗一记……）长得好看有性格，演戏就得付出更多倍的努力吧。

病榻上把针线活也做完了。给老妈的饭卡穿了件十字绣的衣服。我亲爱的妈妈呀，真的要了我小半条命！当我把那个十字锈的卡套套在我妈的饭卡上时，我妈也被感动了！居然叹了句：哎哟哟，真是让我们这个研究生囡囡大材小用！= =||| 老妈，我这个研究生读的是英语，不是读十字绣好伐！！！

下午拼死去嘉兴一趟。老祝给买了衣服，小西装+铅笔裙，用于下个月广州行。话说嘉兴真的没啥OL装，这一身居然是去哥弟买的，大妈牌…… 我直觉着就问她们嘉兴有没有G2000，她们说没有。好吧……我还是比较喜欢上海~不对不对，是灰常喜欢上海！之前一直想毕业前要出去一趟要出去一趟，还真的行，居然还是别人付我钱让我去的~哈哈~ 不过放心不下的是，如果广州行与妈妈的海南行冲突的话，我会非常不瞑目~还有我那华丽丽的Romeo and Juliet~ 四月四月，为什么四月好事儿这么多涅！

腰伤好了一大半。下周杀回上海！目标一为Chanel专柜，应得的精神补偿。目标二是和LG重回松江校园，上演故地重游青春无敌粉嫩登场纯情震撼上外LOOK……（自己吐下先……）天公要美天公要作美~~~~

请大家祝我早日完全康复，谢谢！

1. Put Your iTunes on Shuffle.
（打开你的itunes随机模式或者MP3播放列表之类的）
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
（点“下一首”来获得每个问题的答案）
3. You must write down the name of the song no matter how silly it sounds!
（你必须写下那首歌的名字无论看起来有多傻）
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
（在歌名后面的括号里写下评论）
5. Tag 12 friends.
（点12个朋友）
6. Anyone tagged has to do the same, because fun pointlessness spreads like a virus.
（所有被点的必须做同样的事，因为大家的快乐会像病毒一样传播开来！…）

1.   If someone says, “Is this okay?” you say:
United States-Hunting in New England
(= =|||不好意思，放了Economist的音频||||| 原来我应该用打猎来解除我的无聊……)

2.   How would you describe yourself?
We're Forgiven
(典型的基督教思想，我们有原罪……不过还答案真有那么点意思哎)

3.   What do you like in a guy/girl?
Books and Arts--Hugo Young
(开始发现这个游戏好玩了，真是深知我心啊~我就喜欢年轻有活力的书生~可以跟我侃侃文学艺术啥的，偶尔还给我写封酸死人不偿命的小情书~)

4.  How you feel today？ 
表面的和平
（同意此说法，我现在是腰痛不已，大概昨天运动过量~痛死我鸟~~~）

5.   What is your life’s purpose?
后悔莫及
（:S 我只能说~我总是干那些会让我后悔的事~比如说，买一大堆不会穿的衣服……当然，这也是我人生的目标这一~看见好看的衣服就下手~~~~）

6.   What is your motto?
United States-Migrant Labour
(我吐血了……不过我估计接下来几年我也是个migrant labour。。。)

7.   What do your friends think of you?
Europe-Easten Europe's Woes
(原来我不是他们眼中的开心果啊……我还以为是的来……)

8、（你怎么看你的父母？）
How much
(汗死……我立志做我爸妈的ATM)

9.   What do you think about very often?
Wherever you will go
(应该是Where I will go才对……)

10.  What do you think of your best friend?
Somebody out there
(Somebody out there, always be my back up)

11.  What do you think of the person you like?
The Americas-Ecuador
(我倒……可能我不是很了解the person I like吧……再汗一下……)

12.  What is your Life Story?
Nothing's Changed
(跟BONBON的好成对比啊~~Maybe I'll stay young forever? LOL~)

13.  What do you want to be when you grow up?
城市
(我倒。。。可能是我从小的愿望就是离开乡下地方进城去吧……)

14.  What is your hobby/interest?
80%完美的日子
(NND，终于对了一回了~我要的就是完美的日子~最好是100%, though it's highly impossible...)

15.  What is your biggest fear?
One by one
(不是很能参透其中深意……)

16.  What is your biggest secret?
Tattoo
(我好像没有哎……)

17.  What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Me, my Yoke and I
(不知所云~我看见喜欢的人是会装傻……)

18.  What will you dance to at your wedding?
After Tonight
(蛮适合DANCE的，After Tonight后你的钱就真的是我的钱啦~哇哈哈哈~)

19.  What will they play at your funeral?
Put Yourself in my Place
(这个太吓人的~这样的话估计没有人敢来参加我的funeral....)

20.  What do you think of your friends?
International-Smoke and Health
(我的朋友中没有人吸烟的，都很健康，谢谢！)

21.  What will you post this as?
Middle East and Africa-Ghana's Election
(原来BONBON选中我是人民的意志！)

点名：LG，LP，猫，卉婷，珏珏，V，还有看见这篇BLOG的男同胞们~（我有访问记录哦，不写的话就说明你不是男宁……哇哈哈）

Is your closet overflowing with never-worn clothing, the price tags still waving in the breeze? Is your attic bulging with boxes and boxes of shoes that have never touched pavement? Do you buy new makeup weekly or compact discs by the fistful?

You might be a shopaholic.

Studies estimate that as many as 17 million Americans, better than one in 20 of us, can't control our urge to shop, even at the expense of our job, our marriage, our family and our finances.

In the land of conspicuous consumption, compulsive shopping is the smiled-upon addiction, the butt of countless sitcoms and Sunday comics, one of the few disorders that it's still OK to laugh at. Shop 'til you drop. The one who dies with the most toys wins. Heck, President Bush even called it patriotic to splurge. Where's the harm?

Real consequences
Manhattan psychologist April Benson, author of "I Shop Therefore I Am: Compulsive Buying and the Search for Self," has seen firsthand how destructive compulsive shopping can be.

"One patient of mine got fired because she was compulsively shopping on the Internet all day. There are other people who neglect their children and park them in the mall constantly because that is what they need to feed their habit. Lots of marriages break up over compulsive buying. In fact, we don't call it compulsive buying unless there is some significant impairment in some aspect of your life."

Not only is compulsive shopping tacitly condoned by our materialistic society, it is just as widely misunderstood.
For starters, according to Donald Black, M.D., a University of Iowa psychiatry professor who specializes in obsessive-compulsive disorder, compulsive shopping isn't a true compulsion at all, but instead an impulse control disorder.
"A compulsion is a behavior that is produced to counteract an upsetting thought; for example, I'm contaminated or dirty, therefore I will deal with that anxiety by washing my hands more," he says.

"There is no upsetting thought prompting compulsive shopping. It is a very pleasurable impulse, and people act on those impulses."

Famous shopaholics
Nor is compulsive shopping a modern-day "designer disease." According to Black, a German psychiatrist published the first clinical description of the disorder in 1915.

Famous shopaholics in history include Marie Antoinette, Mary Todd Lincoln, William Randolph Hearst, Jacqueline Kennedy Onassis, Imelda Marcos and Princess Diana. Their addictions ranged from clothing (Jackie O, Diana) to art and antiques (Hearst) to shoes (the heralded Marcos collection) to gloves (Mrs. Lincoln owned 84 pairs of them).
"Now maybe it's more prevalent now because you clearly need available goods, a market economy and disposable income, and those elements haven't always been around," he notes.

Men are 'collectors,' women are 'shopaholics'
While research suggests that nine in 10 shopaholics are women, Benson says it's a common misnomer to tag this as a female disorder.

"People who are part of their studies are psychiatric in- or outpatients, and women self-refer for these problems much more so than men. Recent studies coming out of Europe suggest that more men are beginning to have these problems. In addition to the fact that they don't self-refer for the types of studies on which these statistics are based is the fact that society often calls men who are compulsive buyers 'collectors.' It gives it a refined and slightly highbrow image."

The same is true of the misconception that compulsive shopping is a malady of the privileged class.
"We say that money is an equal opportunity mood changer," says Benson. "There have been a few studies linking socioeconomic class with compulsive buying and no significant results have been found. I had a colleague who had a guy on welfare who compulsively bought."

Black suggests we discard the notion that shopaholics are unaware of their problem.
"They are perfectly aware of what they're doing. Intellectually, they know that their closets and maybe their attic is full, but then they will be in the store and think, well, maybe I do need this one blouse or this will come in handy or I don't have one in this particular shade so I'll buy it. They usually hide it from their husbands. They do have feelings of guilt."

When it becomes a problem
What do women want? In order of preference, most female compulsive shoppers buy clothes, shoes, jewelry, makeup and compact discs.

Men? Clothing, shoes, electronics (TVs, stereos, computers, etc.), hardware and CDs.

Sounds normal enough, right? So how does compulsive shopping differ from your last trip to the mall?

"Well, they don't buy one CD, they buy 10 CDs at a time," says Black. "They might buy five skirts, all the same, perhaps in different shades or slightly different styles, where a normal buyer would identify a need for something new or attend a sale and buy one item."

Benson notes that shopaholics overspend on services as well as goods.

"I had one patient who had her hair blown dry maybe two or three times a week. Between the color, the cut and the blow-dry, she was spending at least $200 if not $250 a week on her hair, and that didn't include all the hair products," she says.

Some shopaholics have more eccentric tastes, though they are by far the minority. Black had one patient who was addicted to Beanie Babies, another who compulsively bought garden figurines; Benson treated a man who only bought compulsively for his camper.

Similarities to compulsive gambling
Black says the typical shopaholic cycle is not unlike that of the compulsive gambler -- or even the serial killer.
"What the patients will typically describe is they have a baseline preoccupation with shopping, they're always thinking about it, and a tension builds and they have to satisfy that tension by going out and shopping. That relieves the tension, at least for the time being," he says.

Some shop out of loneliness, others for the rush of it, still others to fill some inner need. Some seek greater self-esteem, others use it to battle depression. Some shop to return to a happy childhood, others to escape a bad one.
But few shopaholics consider it a debilitating disorder until the spiral of debt or marital discord leaves them no other choice.

All of which makes compulsive shopping especially difficult to treat.

Black says drug studies using serotonin uptake inhibitors (Prozac, Zoloft, Paxil, etc.) have met with mixed results, as the disorder seems to respond equally well to drugs and placebos.

Benson hopes to start her own 12-step-style therapy program this fall, focusing on group techniques to change cognitive behavior. The only other group program treating compulsive shopping in this way is in Fargo, N.D.
"Frankly, there is so little research done that I'm not sure you can talk about success rate," Black admits. "Very few people are studying this or writing about it. There are no standards for treatment, so there are no good definitions of what constitutes recovery. Is their buying down to your level or my level? Or should they abstain from shopping like they tell alcoholics? You can't do that realistically. Maybe if you go shopping, at least have someone with you so you don't go overboard."

Adora might be a shopaholic, after reading it through. I have spent far too much money on clothing whose tags are still untorn, skin care products that I won't use in order to restore the self-repair ability of my terrible skin. And I have always always been so mean on foods... Bonbon used to admire me as a self-denying person, but I really doubt it. I am given to understand that the treatment of compulsive shopping is difficult, in which case, I really don't know what I should do. Wait here and die in the debts of my credit card?